4.5g morning. 5g afternoon +.5g after 45 minutes. Pain is like a 7.9. So close to slipping into the bad range. Been playing games, but should probably be on the couch. I don’t want to take pain meds and not even be able to sit at my desk. Ice pack on now. Took the pm meds pretty early too. 2pm. Going to be a long evening. Probably will have to be flat out on the couch later. 1 short walk. Lots of pain again. Did 20 minutes on the bike. Depression and anxiety come and go throughout the day. I’m fighting it. Occupying myself helps. Probably played too much games today. I think DBD is done. It’s such a bad game. Ridiculously bad. I had some fun and killed some time. We’ll see. Maybe I’ll try after rank reset. I worry so much about money. I don’t know how long I can last taking meds and not working. Rotting away. If I quit kratom again, the mental effects are going to be brutal. I need to save up mental strength and fight through the pain like I did on the first quit. Push past the withdrawals without alcohol or anything else so I can properly withdrawal and recover. I’m nowhere near ready for that.