Sleep wasn’t as good, but was OK. Woke up at 7:45 horrified from pain. Took 6g at 8 or 8:30. Fully central and terrible. Took 4g at about noon. It was still kind of bad most of the day. The kratom definitely took the load off my brain. Did the heavy lifting. At maybe 3:00 I started feeling better. Got a short walk in and tried some games. I totally overdid it sitting at my desk playing games yesterday. I felt it too. I stopped finally when I couldn’t take it anymore. I thought it might have been a mistake. I don’t remember one day when I was able to pull out of a nose dive like today. I’m amazed actually. 4:00 came and went and I didn’t even flinch. I’m going to rest up for the rest of today and get through as is. The PCP called today and made an appt for tomorrow. I’m going to try to get another Rx for Zanaflex. I’ll pay that one out of pocket if I can make it work. Maybe Lyrica or something. We’ll see what’ they’re up for doing. BP was like 140 today when I checked. It will be high there tomorrow. I wonder if they’ll try to treat it. 8:30 and the pain is at horrifying levels. It was nice to get back on track for a bit today. I tried a walk a bit earlier, but turned around. Now I’m glad I did. Why do I keep thinking drugs are the answer? I think the brace does help with stability, which suggests a problem at L2-L4. Probably only a fusion will fix that. That won’t happen forever. Medications are the only thing to get by. God I fucking hate it. I guess the other drug is better than this drug. Whatever that other one is. I took half a Zanaflex. I’ll layer that up over the next hour and hopefully get some sleep. It never stops amazing me how fast I can go from decent to horrified. The horror is the root source of my anxiety. Without a doubt.