Oh god, the insomnia. I didn’t have that yet during the last few times I took days off. I also had the strong withdrawals. I took a GABA at bed time. Bang on 1 hour after falling asleep I woke up with strong withdrawals. They weren’t the strongest I’ve had them. Maybe that first GABA helped mitigate. I took another GABA and they chilled out, but I couldn’t fall back asleep. I took half a Zanaflex and fell asleep for only a few minutes. I moved to the couch and fell asleep, but woke up constantly. Eventually moved back to bed and woke up at 7. Terrible sleep. I am so tired. It’s making me feel run down and painful. I had some Dr. Pepper and and ice pack again and felt better. Just really tired now. I need to differentiate withdrawal pain from actual pain. I think I’m still OK. Someone asked for help at 11. That will get me out of the house. I really want to drug myself asleep for a nap. So day 1-1/2 seems like it was actually day 2. That would be great to knock a day off the recovery, but being slammed into it is quite difficult. Maybe the ash/ag is accelerating it. I took that this morning 1/.5. I think that’s part of what made me feel a bit better. I need serotonin. I expect tonight to be terrible too. I’ll have the GABA ready for when I wake up with bad WDs. The insomnia though…my god. It’s awful. I think it only lasted until night 4 or 5 on the first quit, so I just have to push through. And I might be a day ahead. Don’t count on that though. And my normal sleep is very disjointed anyway. Insomnia is my norm, just not as bad as last night. Cooler day today, so I can get some walks in. Pain is mounting just before 10:00. Holding my breath. Getting bad. I don’t THINK it’s the WDs, but I could be wrong. Definitely thinking of taking the pain meds. I won’t make it through the day like this. Doing work at CJB totally pushed me over the edge. I had to come home for tools and I took 5.5g of the green. About 12:30. Went back and it got worse. I was in so much pain when I walked out. I was grateful for the kratom at that point. I put an ice pack on it and it’s feeling better. I wasn’t sure if the pain was coming back or not. Was the pain relief a placebo effect. I don’t know. But I learned that I am nowhere near capable of doing actual work without ending up in crisis mode. Now to decide if I will re-dose at 4, which is an hour away, or just go for it. I need to give this as much of a try as I can. Tapering is always an option, and I won’t suffer excessively. I am so tired. Exhausted. I need sleep for this to progress. Ash/ag in the pm. Did a short walk. It was very hard. Didn’t take any more. Didn’t really need it. Pain is rising in the evening though. 7pm. Though I do feel the kratom dropping off right now. Pain is pretty bad at night. Pretty much feels like normal. I don’t feel any withdrawals. If it’s this bad tomorrow, we’re right back on the old program.