Another day of feeling yucky. 6.5g at 9:15. Did a short walk. Then a long walk after noon, because fuck it. I kind of wanted to. I’m tired of the claustrophobia and being held prisoner. If I’m taking drugs, I best be doing some of the things I want to do. The worst though is when I take drugs AND I still can’t do anything. Double whammy and it sucks bad. 7.5g at 3:00. Didn’t feel much of anything from it. Didn’t re-dose. Been on the couch a lot today. Did a medium walk. Very hot out, and it’s only going to get worse. The walking is mostly out of anger and boredom. It hurt coming home. No ice today. I’m kind of over it. I feel so tired. Almost an exhausted feeling. I can’t nap on kratom. I sleep probably better than without it. But so tired. I also find myself snacking and searching for something, even though I don’t want it. It’s my brain wanting more drugs. I don’t want more drugs, but my brain wants something more to fill the holes. Another long walk. Even though I didn’t feel much of any surge today, I still got out and did lots of walking. Maybe less is more. I just need to get past the lack of panic reduction. Hot day tomorrow. It always gets super hot when I feel decent. Though tomorrow is another day and another chance for a shit show.