Words can’t describe the end of the night. Took a Zanaflex. Then a half. Couldn’t pass out despite pain being a 10. Took a GABA and finally fell asleep. Woke up at 6:45 and that was it. Not much of a hangover thankfully. Took 5.5g at 7:00. 4g at 11:00. I think I had just the right amount of alcohol because I can’t fully remember exactly how bad the pain was last night unless I try. And I’m not trying. It was so fucking bad. The kratom today has barely taken the edge off. I feel side effects after the second dose. I’m hoping the later dose will straighten me out a bit. This is some of the worst pain I’ve had in a while. It was pretty well controlled for a while until this last week. Sitting at desk is super painful. I need a break. I think this started when I tried to same a few dollars by using the old kratom that seemed oxidized. 6.5g at 3:15. No pain relief, just side effects. Just ordered new kratom. This stuff has a higher % active compound. This shit has to get back on track somehow, sometime. Maybe tomorrow – it usually takes a day to ramp back up. but my usage is already high. Probably 6g tomorrow morning, and I probably won’t be able to make it to 10am. It’s a touch better with the brace on. Trying to play games. It’s driving me a bit nuts. Had a short walk. Got hard towards the end. I felt the pain get local for a short period. Meds are trying to work, but not quite there. Pain is back to central. Maybe tomorrow we’ll be back on the right side of things. Ready for this day to end. Getting better as the night went on. I was able to play a TAB map. Went for another short walk. Once I put the brace on, things started to improve. It’s much more local rather than central. Pain is pretty well controlled, though I still feel shitty. Should be better tomorrow after some sleep. Tolerance break tomorrow? I so need relief. It’s a problem when things aren’t balanced. Too extreme on the pain side, too much time increasing doses and no tolerance breaks. It’s impossible to balance right.