And the days roll on, wasting away, just like me. Sleep was decent last night. Lots of wake ups., but always got right back to sleep. Woke up at 8:00. Fell asleep pretty fast. Sleep is always a disaster off of the meds. It’s weird falling asleep, but great from then on. No problems like the night before. 6.5g at 9:30. I don’t leave the couch until the drugs are on board. Like ever. I didn’t feel much from it. As per the new usual. Short walk in the morning. Sitting here with my brace on, I feel slightly better. That will flip if I spend too much time here like yesterday. I’m not paying for yesterday’s long gaming session thankfully. It feels kind of spasmy and moderately grindy right now. With a hint of pain relief from the brace. Aaand after 8 minutes it hurts like hell. Time to be held prisoner on the couch. Church walk. Trying to play games and it hurts. I’ll give it a try to distract myself for the next 2 hours until drug time. 7.5 at 3:30. definitely just side effects and not much pain relief or serotonin. Maybe this lot of kratom is just stale? I’ll try the new stuff as soon as it gets here and see. Maybe I can mess with that red that I have. 2 shorts and a long walk today. I was going to punch out early on the long, but said fuck it. Last couple blocks were hard. Tired of being couped up. Oh so tired. I’m thinking of getting that laptop. Game from the recliner or couch. If I’m not able to sit at my desk and play, I usually am not up for playing at all. But I am so tired of the claustrophobic. feeling. Hands tied, unable to do anything I want. So very tired of shitty TV. I would have to force myself sometimes, but I can have a bit of fun gaming. Play mindless games like 7 days or Palia. Play from bed like I used to do in Oakland with Stardew. I don’t want to force the games though. Sometimes I don’t have the patience and I rage quit. I don’t need a $750 machine that doesn’t get used and gets rage quit all the time because I have no patience to play. Then put it down to go to my desk? First world problems indeed, and I’m poor.