Fell asleep pretty fast. Woke up a lot, but slept OK. Took half a Zanaflex at 6 something. Woke up after 8. 5.5g at 9:30 +.5g 40 minutes later. Started hurting my stomach within 20 minutes of taking it. Still hurting. Without the stomach stuff, I think I would feel decent right now. Very mild effects, but a bit hard to tell with the stomach pain. I’m so fucked with this situation. Can’t take kratom, can’t live without it. Can’t quit it either. If I can get through the stomach stuff, I will continue trying to taper. I need to be off this stuff as soon as I can manage. How I get by without, I don’t know, but if the table is actually helping, and if I can ever get the injection, maybe there is a path. Stomach pain eased up. I dusted the apt, then took a short walk. I feel fairly normal. Still recovering, but decent. So fucking hot outside. Dying in that heat. There is a breeze today, but it feels like a humid hair dryer pointed at me. I’m hotter than usual. Cool weather coming tomorrow. 7g at 3:00. Long walk. Cooled off a tiny bit, but still humid and sweaty. Can’t wait for proper cool weather. I didn’t fee like I had a lot of energy, but I had the strength. Head feels foggy from the drugs, and pain relief doesn’t feel strong, but obviously it’s working. I need to make sure I distinguish proper pain from WD symptoms. I felt like yesterday was mainly WD symptoms. I just need some kratom to fuel me enough to get by. I need pain relief to help me through it too. I don’t feel pain relief. When I spend all day on the couch, it causes a pain the table can’t fix. Plus it puts me in prison which kills me mentally. Another long walk. Started a bit unsure, but then I felt good as I got into it. Felt tired close to home. Increased the pain. Table isn’t really giving pain relief, but I felt OK for the rest of the night. I felt mild WDs most of the day. Maybe because I took so much yesterday, even though it didn’t even affect me. It could still fuck with tolerance. I hope tomorrow is an OK day and I can taper down half a gram. I probably need another day at the current level to chill out my brain, but I want off of this shit. The stomach issues alone are enough. But tomorrow will probably be a shit show.