Took half Zanaflex at 6. Woke up and couldn’t get back to sleep for a bit, so not risking it. Woke up at 8:30. 6g at 9:30. Felt kind of wrecked when I woke up, but made it to drug time OK. I think it’s good to wait a bit to take the drugs. It seems terrible almost every day, but it’s the waking up part that is causing a big issue. No stomach problems until right when I sat down here at 11:00. Rainy and hot, so no walking right now. Not really up for it now anyway. New kratom is out for delivery. This batch of jarred red isn’t as strong as the last one. If I’m going to taper, I need some consistency. Switching is what has been fucking me up so badly. I guess all I need is one day of the same kratom not working the same way to fuck it all up anyway. That happens regularly. Last week was my time. I was feeling pain relief from the table, but then I switched to the new, stronger kratom and that derailed everything. Relying on drugs is like walking on a razor’s edge. Doesn’t take much of anything to fuck up the balance. I need to be off this shit, that much is evident. Maybe I can survive with the other supplements I have. CT quit seems like a disaster. Short walk in the morning. I got going much more easily without horrible stomach pain. Short walk at 3. 6.5g at 3:20. Walk was slow and gingerly. Pain has been manageable. I feel an adjustment to the drugs calming down and fading out. That fucked up day is causing issues still. I need like 5 days to get used to a taper. I didn’t make it that far before because I ran out. I felt much better going into it then. 3 short walks and a medium today. Pain was very sharp and localized on the last medium.

By Del