Decent sleep. Ended up waking up at 8:30. 5.5g at 9:30. Actually showered before the kratom and ate right after taking it. Went for a long walk. Feeling a drop off at 11:45. I might have a cold. Kind of feeling that. I’m sure extra kratom would help. It’s always something when you try to quit this shit. We’ll call this day 2 of the taper. If I feel run down, hopefully I can just sleep. The back feels OK I guess. Localized pain. The walk was pretty strong. Maybe I blew my load on the long walk. I read some reports from other people tapering and they go super slow. Like .1g per dose. .2g per day for me. Some took months to do it, though they said it was painless. A soft landing would be super nice. Time for the brain to adjust and start doing things on its own that the drug did. But the quicker the better, also. I don’t think I can handle a CT. It would make the pain levels go through the roof. I think that’s the part I need adjustment time for. I feel like I can muddle my way through the mental stuff, but obviously the pain will kill me. I think as a backup plan, I can always stall at the current level for a few days and adjust. Or start doing smaller steps. As I get lower, half gram drops become a larger percentage drop, so I maybe should start with .5, then after 4 days go to .3, then after 5 days .1 drops or something. 2 weeks is a pretty aggressive schedule. Plus there is the jump off point, which will have its own shit show associated with it. This is all new, and it will probably fail in 2 more days anyway. Short walk. It is blowing out there! Chilly! I love it. Starting to rain though. I don’t feel like I have much energy, but I feel good. The walk was strong. Been playing games. Back hurting in the chair. 6.5 at 3:15 and an ice pack. These tapers give me a nice glimpse of what drug free life might be like. My head is better, energy is better. But of course I’m still on a lot of drugs. I had an appetite this morning, and that happened last time also. It makes me wish it wasn’t a 3 week process. But I’ve done this with anti-depressants before. You have to be patient. Those didn’t affect opioid receptors and I wasn’t taking it for pain though. I got excited about the cold weather and changed my sheets and put away the wool duvet and brought out the down one. I miss sleeping with a down comforter every night. Long walk after dinner. Short walk in the evening. Pain was mounting and I was bored. I was thinking I felt pretty good on the walk. This is usually a sign of bad things to come. Usually it’s just a change in routine that helps temporarily. Nothing helps long term, so the pain might come back very soon. This is about as long as I’ve been able to do something positive. I always hope I’m wrong, but I’ve also gotten my hopes up before, so I want to set my expectations. I’m ready to work as long as there is pain relief. Always ready. Just did a long session on the table. One of the longest. Not as much pain in the fused part as normal. I feel like I’ve typed this before.