Sleep was the usual…woke up in pain a lot. Woke up at 7:15 and couldn’t get back to sleep. Seemed too late to take Zanaflex. 6g of green at like 7:45 or something. Resigned myself to taking 3 doses today. This should have been a good day, but that never happens for me. Got a short walk in. Very slow and guarded. Painful in the end. I’m upright in my chair. Much better day, but still painful and not out of the woods at all. Pain drugs are so dangerous. I would rather feel anything other than the pain from the last few days. And if that feeling is good, then let’s go, right? Hurting sitting here now. Ready for that middle dose already. 3g at like 11:45. Not helping a huge amount, but getting me by. 7g of red at 3:40. Short walk. Still very difficult, but good to get out. Mood is at least good today. Pain feels like it’s manageable, but I am pretty crippled by it. Much more than last week. Feel a drop off at 7:30 already sitting here trying to play a game. Probably a problem with 3/day doses. It should still be lasting longer than this. Ice pack on. Church walk. God how I want to be off drugs, in a normal, stable amount of pain, and have a job, see dad regularly, etc.