Took half a Zanaflex at two different times in the night. Still woke up at 7:45. I forced that sleep hard. Managed to make it to 9:15. Pain was bad, but WDs weren’t. Took 6.5 of red Borneo. This stuff is super red. I haven’t taken red like this before (and the Vietnam yesterday). It didn’t do a damn thing though. Not even a little. Took 2g of green after that. 10:30 now and I’m starting to feel better. Not helping pain much, but the head feels good. There doesn’t seem to be any after effects from the beers. Good session on the table. I actually felt good being on it for the first time in over a week. Did a medium walk. Felt strong for most of it. Definitely limped home though. Probably too much. Had icy hot and the brace on for it. Really tight. Felt good. Dropped off at like 12:30. Lately it feels like the kratom isn’t lasting as long. Maybe that’s the red doing that? Tried riding the bike and it hurt like a mofo. I realized pain was central, although I don’t feel super awful. Maybe that’s what I felt at 12:30. Pain going from local to central. 7.5 red maeng da at 3:15. Might take 2 or 2.5 extra green if this works the same as this morning. I’m thinking this stuff would be good for a taper since it’s so weak. 3g is like 1.5g of green. I can get really low before I jump. If I can get the dose right. And of course, I have to be able to get low pain levels so I can quit. Cute how you think you’re going to get better some day. 2.4g of green extra. I feel nothing from the red. Don’t feel much from the green either. Going to be another long night. I’ve had a bad headache most of the day that I can’t shake. Now I feel a bit nauseous for some reason. Tomorrow is straight green. 6.5/7.5 to start. If I have to take more, I will. I need a decent day after this week long stretch of hell. 6:45 and the pain is pretty bad. Headache eased, but is coming back. Not panicking yet, but scared. Trying to keep it out of my mind. I want to pass out for the night right now. I don’t know how much more I can keep forcing the sleep to delay the meds. My tolerance is fucked. I feel like I need 3 doses a day all the time. Maybe I’ll have to. Part of tapering later will be dropping back to 2 doses. I’m just beyond fucked tonight. Had 2 rums. Not sure what that’s even doing to me. 9:15. Long fucking night. I’m pretty sure I’m going to wake up early tomorrow. There’s no way I sleep and feel OK tomorrow. It’s a 3 dose day. I wish I could say those were better days because I had more drugs, but they’re always worse because they necessitate 3 doses.