Tough getting to sleep and staying asleep. Kind of weird. I used the CPAP. Not sure if I needed it. Kept waking up. Didn’t take Zanaflex. Woke up at 7:30 or something and stayed in bed daydreaming and chilling. Got up at like 8:30. 6g of green Vietnam at 9:45. Very slow and low, but finally coming on at 10:30. I need to get a good day or two under my belt, then take a day off. Not sure if that will ever come though. Now I remember why a day off a week is so hard. It felt so easy during my quit. Hard to do at a 10. I thought about it for today, but Since I feel a bit better, I thought I would have a decent day and try to get some walking in. Although I felt decent yesterday morning and tanked hard once the afternoon hit. Short walk. 12:30 and the pain relief is gone. I don’t feel WDs. I feel decent mentally. Table felt good. Icy hot. Still a struggle to get through. Been on the couch. Been in la la land all day. Some sort of state. I don’t know what. Short walk. It’s like the right recipe of tiredness, caffeine, kratom. Back hurts, but I feel OK and getting by. This is a good state for a day off. I don’t think I feel this way without the kratom though. Maybe tomorrow. Very weird right now, but it’s not bad at all. 7g at 3:30. Table feels OK when I’m on it. I’ve been here before. Hurts like hell off the table. But it’s local pain. I’m on the right side of it. Yeah, I think the spaciness was the coming down from an 8 to a 7. Taking a breath, decompressing. I didn’t feel the opioid high at all from the pm dose, but I felt a bit of the serotonin though. I think this will fade fast tonight. I know I can’t fix my pain, but the game is to keep filling my tank with enough energy to handle the pain I have. An impossible task. There is no quitting kratom without pain relief. Until then, I have to chase some unobtainable, inconsistent ‘high’ in order to get by. Short walk. I think 3 so far. Good energy in the evening. Pain still local. Ice, games. Thinking another walk in a bit. Gotta make hay while the sun is shining. Had the inflatable brace on earlier. Helped until it hurt. Short walk. Table afterwards. Feels very nice. Finally. Maybe I’ll be more aggressive with it. I should take tomorrow off. I just want to enjoy another good day like today and exercise. Days off are couch bound. I hate being sedentary. Especially when I’m forced. Local pain is intense! I’ll take it over central pain any day though. I can get used to this. The relief in the upper area allows me to get by. It’s been a while since I’ve had any relief. Like a month. 1 month since my birthday today.