Wake up 8:15. Half Zanaflex at like 6. 5.5g at 9:45. Medium walk. Decent so far. No nausea from the kratom. Used the same as yesterday. Must have been the alcohol. I must have something wrong with my liver because I clearly don’t process alcohol anymore. Medium walk. Fucking feet, fucking shoes. Maybe time to buy new shoes. It only happens with these softer Skechers. Well, I got a wild hair and went to the shoe store. Spent $80 on some Asics. They’re a bit like hikers, but a bit softer. They had a comfy pair of walking shoes, but they were the same as the Skechers. I think I need something firmer. My feet hurt all over. The gel insert is flattened and now causing it’s own issues. My back is killing me right now from the effort, but it’s sore. It’s a different kind of pain. I think ibuprofen and ice should certainly help this. This is the type of pain that is inevitable, and expected after being sedentary. I could do without it, but it’s not as bad as the other stuff. 6g at 3:30. Taper continues, though I maybe should pause today after this extra pain. Pain melted away pretty well. I do feel a bit of nausea now though. Not as bad as yesterday, and nothing this morning. Medium walk with the brace. I felt like I could do more, but my feet couldn’t Table is still helping. 5g tomorrow at this pace. I’m happy with today. I pushed and suffered, but I was able to control it. Ibuprofen is helping, magnesium oil helps a tiny bit, the table helps, ice helps. A lot of stuff helps when you’re below an 8. I half expected to push myself over the limit today, but I maintained. I can live like this, with a lot more strengthening though. That will come when(if) I’m finally able to get through without drugs. Short walk. This one hurt a bit. I was worried it was too much. Just that nervous energy, plus the ability to actually do it. Need to make sure I sleep enough. If I wake up at 6, I’m fucked. Shit. I overdid it. I can’t control the pain right now. SI joints hurt, which was the first thing to go last flare up. I think this one is mostly my fault.

By Del