Sleep was decent. Longer stretches without wake ups., but still the same old inability to find comfortable positions. Half Zanaflex at 7:15. Managed to sleep until 8:45. I know this was crucial. Lots of pain this morning. Very borderline. Took 5.5g at 9:40. I can’t let this get above an 8. I need to recover from this, whatever it takes. This might be a good test for me on how to manage proper flare ups. I knew I shouldn’t have done that last walk. I knew I should have turned around. I didn’t listen. My mind is still strong and not freaking out. Sitting here now hurts a ton. Back to the couch. Table isn’t giving any relief. Feels OK though. I feel like I need a good pop back there really soon. 1:00. Drugs are faded. Pain is bad. I think it’s at an 8, but I still have some mental strength. Not sure if it’s still salvageable. Full Zanaflex and some sleep. I can’t sleep my way out of it. Woke up feeling a bit worse. Straight into 6.5g at 3:30. No matter where the pain comes from, if it overwhelms my capacity to handle it, I’m fucked. Table isn’t giving any pain relief. I don’t think this is caused by that issues. I still want to try to get a good pop later though. +.5g. I can just barely feel the pain relief. There is such a small window before the side effects really take over. Did some time on the table. One problem I have is that I can’t feel the relief from the table. I also don’t feel the strong local pain when I’m sitting. The kind that has been making me run to the table for a bit of relief. So I don’t use the table. But that pain is still happening, and stacking up. I need to use the table as if I can feel that strong local pain. It is providing relief, I just can’t feel it because the pain is central. But it will help in the long run, and hopefully lower the amount of time spent in central land. Table, ice, then I felt better. Short walk. It was also 2 hours post, which often is when I get a serotonin boost. It just happened to work today. Walk was fast, but foot issues. Lots of energy from this one. Is it enough to fix things? And how the fuck to I sleep tonight? Yeah, that boost is gone. Trying table, but it kind of hurts now. Back is very sore, and I’m sore from laying down all day. This still might get better tomorrow. I won’t have anymore mental strength though if it’s not. Seems better at night. Not even going to try to sleep right now though. Forced too much of it today. Ice helped a lot. Doctor Who tonight. So good.