Half Zanaflex at 6. Woke up at some point super hot again. No clue what that is. 9:15 wake up. All that motivation from last night was gone this morning. I did remember it though. 6g at 9:45. It took a bit, but I showered and did a long walk. I was a bit determined for that one. Trying to manufacture a bit of that motivation. I need to go to the grocery store, and I want to buy more vegetables. Greens. I still have a bit in the tank. I feel sore and worn out from the last couple days. The mid back muscle was hurting this morning, but better now. I wanted to taper, but 6 felt right at the time, and it feels right now. What a lunch. Reminds me of how fulfilling v-word life was. It all tasted and felt so good, and I felt better after eating. Felt run down after the store. Motivated myself for a walk. Turned into a long one. Tired on the last leg. I feel like I’m tired from working out hard. Lots of veggies from the store. I hope I can eat them all. Collards for dinner! Happy about that. Started playing a game. 3:30 came and went and I didn’t even worry about the kratom. I took 6g at 4. There’s the taper I missed this morning. I’m super irritable right now. Have had a headache for a while. Not sure exactly why the irritability is there. 30 minutes on the bike. Legs are tired. Medium walk. Felt good. Headache is bad. Teeth hurt. Good day in the end. I need to get a better start tomorrow than I had today. I’ve been trying to tire myself out so I can sleep well. Been a good day, but the pain is getting to me at the end of the night. Enough that if it sticks around, it will drive me nuts. Been sitting here for a while, so maybe. Zaps the confidence instantly.

By Del