Full Zanaflex at 6 something. Still woke up at 8:30. Pain is brutal. I’m barely holding on. Trying to distract myself and not think about it. I’m space out because of it. Couldn’t eat breakfast at all. Kratom made me super nauseous last night. Dizzy. More of the same today, but not as strong. Good times. So irritable. Can’t play games for it. I feel like I need to pass out. 7g at 3:30. So much side effects. Just had a few small pops on the table. What a relief. I was going nuts. Follow up appt in 1 week, so gotta get through and be sane enough to demand help. Medium walk. Lots of nausea last couple days. I would be drinking if it wasn’t for that. I wonder if it’s this Riau stuff doing that. Made it through another one, but barely. Reminds me of my first quit when I just counted the seconds until the day was done. No life. Full focus.