Double half Zanaflex at 5 or so. Was up for a while. Wake up 8. This fucking sucks. Cross eyed all morning. 6g at 9:30. Tried the crisp kratom to see if it gives less nausea. Held back from 6.5. Trying to slow the roll. definitely less nausea. Ordered more Vietnam. God, sitting here feels like spasms and a hot poker searing into my spine. 7g at 3:30. Went to Trader Joe’s. Been a better night. 20 minutes on the bike. Getting better? Had like 3 very small pops all in quick succession. That happened a few days ago. Felt like it relieved something. I feel much better late in the evening. Took the crisp stuff again. I’ll stick with it tomorrow. Same pain relief, less nausea (still some). Tons of energy late. Listening to music. Seems like I’m on the mend. The bad streaks seem to be shorter, and even somewhat predictable. 2-3 days long. Imagine being drug free and using weed or something during those 2 days. Anything seems better than kratom right now. Listening to music, staying up late reminds me of SF living with an old roommate. Too bad I’m still alone and on drugs.

By Del