Horrible sleep. At about 8 I felt a generous dose of horror. Got 15 more minutes of sleep and woke up. Less horrifying, but not good. 5.5g at 8:20. It will be a triple dose day, so taper is off. I fucked up the money part of the SNAP thing last night. That bothers me. I need to finish the SSD app. Need to make sure everything is in there. Then I get denied in 5 months anyway. Finishing it is all I can do. Maybe do the Uber thing so I can get something coming in. Went to dad’s and got a TV and dresser. He helped out a lot. Spent many hours on it. At least it distracted me from being tired and triple dosing. 6.5g at 3:15. My android box isn’t working properly anymore. I wiped my tiny PC build. Redid that with Manjaro KDE. Stole that ram for this laptop. Fucking hell. Do I buy another apple garbage TV? Gotta take another crack at SSD. Get that denial in motion. Except for the 24 hour period I had a few days ago, this has been non stop since the 25th. Super oppressive. Feels like a longer stretch than in a long time. No pops on the table. Nothing helping. No ability to walk or cycle. Absolutely brutal. Unbelievable horrifying. Just when you think it can’t get worse. Spaced out most of the evening. Waiting for it to end. Need to ship a package tomorrow morning. No SSD today. I’m fried. Always an excuse.

By Del