Up for over an hour at 6. Usual medication routine. I gave up on it, but then fell asleep and woke up at 9:30. 6g at 10. Did the copies and sent off the SSD paperwork. That’s done. Made PCP appt for next Friday. That one seems weird. Never know who you’re going to get there. Usually appts are next day clinic style. Maybe different office. Always a shit show with medicaid. I’m spent now. Just want to sleep. Limp along until pm dose. At least I did everything I needed. Need a psych appt and get that added to the pile of info. 7g at 3. No real relief from it. Side effects. Just coaxed out a pop on the table. Higher than I normally like them. Don’t know if that will be helpful. Massive headache oncoming. Feel the need for alcohol also. One of these days that started decent, but devolves into madness. I haven’t eaten much today either. Short walk. First in like 2 weeks. Just before 8 and I’m freaking out pretty good. How do I make it through this one? OK, so red wine at 8. This won’t go well.