Terrible night’s sleep. So much pain. Constant wake ups. Constant pain, achiness. Did the medication thing at 6 and didn’t fall back to sleep. The wine wasn’t an issue at all. Just pain. I’m so paralyzed right now. Got up at 7:15. 6g at 7:45 or so. definitely a triple today. I just can’t get back on track. I maybe had another 24 hour period that was decent. Not as good as the previous 24 hr period a week ago. But outside of those times, it has been pure shit for me. Nothing is helping anymore. 4g red Vietnam at 11:30. No big help from it. I did manage to eat lunch. More than I can say for the last few days. I’m getting by so far, but that’s the best it gets. Medium walk. Some snow outside. 7g at 3:40. Almost 5 and I’m just now finally feeling good from kratom. Cooking dinner. Fresh cooked food is so good and such a luxury. It was nice when I was doing it every day. Glad I ate more than once today. Just went on the table and it hurt like a motherfucker. Really difficult to relax and stretch out. No pops of course. Makes me think I’m just a bit high right now and that will crash and the pain is still very present underneath. Medium walk. While I still can.