4 beers in the end. Boy the cracks were wide open last night. I was at the point where I was fully embracing the insanity. Seeing it as a gift. It’s been a looong time since I’ve been there. I don’t feel that this morning, but I’m sure it’s still there. It will reappear as the day goes on. Woke up 7:30. Had some caffeine. 6g at 9:30. Might re-dose. I was totally out of it last night. I passed out hard. Prime form. Let’s see what shit show today blasts down my throat. Bring the madness. Went to Aldi. Holy fuck that was bad. Pure horror. I really struggled on that one. Fuck. Had big trouble walking. I was ready to collapse at the car. 7.5g at 3:15. Please help. It did help. For a bit. Managed to eat. 7:30 now. I tried playing games and I’m entering a state of horror right now. Just on the edge of it. Killed the game. I really don’t want to lay down for the rest of the night. Subzero temps coming for the next few days. I’m locked inside and probably horizontal one way or another. Fuck my life.
Aaand I feel like I broke a rib. I was trying to pull the back seat car door closed because it was frozen and was stuck half way and I jammed my ribs on the car seat. Hurts like a motherfucker. Going to be fun trying to sleep on that side! Add it to the list. I’m cooked right now. Limping to the finish line.