Sleep was pretty off the rails. I passed out quick, but constantly woke up. I was snoring a lot. Throat messed up. Woke up at 7. 6.5g at 7:15 of green Vietnam. Today will just be a triple dose day then. Great thing to do when I’m just about maxed. I’m so cooked. I am suffering hard today. Super tired. Spaced out. Only 10:30. Waking up early is terrible. Pain is really bad. I need some intervention. Sometimes triple dosing helps. Gets some red kratom in the mix. 4g red Vietnam at 11:15. That’s as long as I could last. Help. 7.5g maeng da at 3:15. Help. Please. Barely felt anything from the kratom. 5:30 and whatever I did feel is wearing off already. Table isn’t helping. Brace isn’t helping. This was my cycle before I got the table. I kept maxing out, then had to take days off. Tomorrow is either max dose or day off. I’ve been fucked for so long I don’t feel like I can handle the day off. Alcohol will start at 10am. It will be a very bad day if that happens.

By Del