Once I passed like 9:00, things got easier last night. The night ended OK. Sleep was really fucked again though. Super hard wake up at 6:30. Full treatment and still was up for an hour. Managed to sleep until 9:30. Going to take 6.5 today. Pain seems OK., though I seem fully knackered. 10:15 kratom. 2:00 and hanging in there. I had a period after the table and with some mag oil where I felt decent. I think that was at the peak of the kratom. It has waned now, but pain is still decent. I’m at the point with the table where it doesn’t hurt to be on it. I can stretch really well and not destroy myself. I just need to keep at it. 7 or 7.5 later. I might suffer through 7g just to get on a lower amount. Maybe repeat the same tomorrow, maybe taper again in the am. I feel like I need to force the taper, as hard as it is. 7g at 3:25. I feel better for having less drugs in me. Thankfully the pain is holding out. Started up my PC. About twice a week at best. 5:10 and it’s mostly side effects. Glad I took the lower amount just for the side effects. They have been bothering me a lot lately. Little dizzy, little nauseous. It’s a bit early today also. Short walk. Not bad. I was hoping to escape the anxiety and side effects of these drugs. It’s not normal to feel this shitty from these drugs. I need to taper so bad.

By Del