Ended up playing TAB all evening. Nice to have the distraction, but boy did it hurt sitting for so long. Just when I thought sleep couldn’t get worse… Holy fuck it was bad. Total mess. Managed to wake up at 9:40, but probably only got 4 hours of shitty sleep. 6g at 10:10. This definitely fucked my momentum. I can barely move right now. And with less meds, it will probably be a sucky day. Pain feels worse if for no other reason than the lack of sleep. Went to Walmart. Holy fuck that was bad. I was about to collapse in the frozen food aisle. Bending down for things was killing me. Shopping, walking around the store was killing me. Really hard. Just did table and mag oil. 6.5g at 3:20. Taking it a bit early on purpose to hopefully not affect sleep as much. God I need a decent night’s sleep. I would feel a lot better if I had sleep. The side effects hit earlier and faded much earlier than the last few days. I take that as I’m dialing in the correct kratom dosage. I have half a mind to do 5/6 tomorrow. I would love to have this shit out of me entirely. Amazing how when I feel better, the drugs drop, the diet gets better, I play more games, etc. Just did a short walk. Moving has still been very difficult though. That hasn’t improved. I don’t feel actual pain relief, I just feel better. It’s not like the past times. I bet it will crash sometime soon also. It usually does within 4 or 5 days. We’ll call this day 4. Still a struggle to get through. I don’t feel good, but at least I don’t feel like I want to murder myself. I need sleep badly.