Sleep was about the same as yesterday. Half zanny at 6:30. Wake up 8:30. 7g at 9:30. Last night turned out to be really difficult. I have come to terms with the fact that I am not any better. I had a 4 day semi-reprieve. I guess from the table? It’s not helping anymore. Maybe I’ll take some time off of it to recover. It hurt like fucking hell last night. As usual, I have no clue what to do. Ice pack didn’t give any pain relief today. Just did the table. Not too long or intense. Feel spasmy. How am I going to get through these days? I need pain relief. I have no clue how to get it. Now we’re just about maxed on meds again. Please fucking help me. Been surviving, but barely. 3:00 now. Trying some D2 to get by. If this were my baseline, I would actually be happy, even though it’s pretty shitty. 8g at 3:30. 9:00. Getting by tonight. Barely. Been upright most of the evening. Tried playing some games, but not really into it. Table sessions have been a bit shorter, but decent. Not forcing anything. Maybe I can recover and get back to being a touch more aggressive. Who the fuck knows.