Sleep was completely off the fucking rails. Constant wake ups for no reason. Started right when I first fell asleep and kept going all fucking night. Half zanny at 6. Didn’t fall back to sleep until after 7:30. Woke up 8:50. Thank goodness I got that little bit of extra sleep. It was pouring rain with thunder, so that no doubt helped me. 7g at 10. Forgot to do the table and went to pick up Rx and Aldi. It was very difficult, but I’m doing OK. back at home. Pain meds are working. It might get difficult when the meds wear off. Dad wants me to go over for dinner to talk about something important. Why can’t he come here? I wish he understood what “paralyzed by pain” meant. I already warned him it probably won’t happen. Today is going fairly well. I have no idea how. 230 and I’m still upright. Time to taper again I guess. 7g? Wearing off at 3:10. I did take it a half hour later than normal, so it’s kind of on time. Playing games hurts so fucking much. Sweaty content hurts even more. Crazy. 7.5g at 3:30. That’s still 1 gram lower than yesterday. 5:00 and I barely feel the meds. And I need to go to dad’s. I’ll jam the ice pack back there and won’t stay long. Dad offered to pay health insurance. Fucking amazing. Now I’m looking into it and I don’t think I can fucking get it. There is open enrollment for buying insurance on your own, and we’re outside of it. When I last looked at this on Jan 15, that was the last day of open enrollment. Fucking unbelievable. I can’t figure out workarounds really. I need to just make a phone call and find out. This is exactly what I asked Marcia to do for me, and she didn’t do anything. Fuck. And tomorrow will be the cutoff to start insurance on April 1, so if I don’t get it done tomorrow somehow, it will have to wait until May 1. If I can get it at all. FML.
Aaaand I can’t get it. I can’t do anything outside of open enrollment. Finally get the lifeline I need and I can’t use it. My only options are to complain to Molina about nobody accepting their shitty insurance and hoping something happens with it, or maybe asking someone to give me insurance through their company. No clue if that’s possible. I’m sure it’s not meant to work that way. Might not be legal. Mexico is looking better.