Sleep was terrible again. I guess it’s the Lyrica. I’m on low doses of kratom, so that shouldn’t be doing it. Slow and rough wakeup today. Pain was worse than yesterday. I’m pushing forward on the taper. Took 5g at 945. I didn’t feel groggy this morning from Lyrica like I have been. No caffeine. Back in December, when I stopped being groggy, that’s when the lyrica stopped working. Beyond 5/5.5 of kratom, I think I would start going to .3g steps rather than .5. I’ve never made it that far before. I definitely feel the lack of pain meds. Not really increased pain or WDs, something different – although the pain is under treated. Bigger dose coming in the pm to save the day. I might also pause here to get used to this amount. I’ve been on such high doses for so long. It will take a long time to get used to lower doses. I’m super bored. No taste for tv. I’ll try some TAB games. Rage quit TAB, been on the couch. Pain is bad, but my head feels OK. I don’t feel like I’m in a state of shock and I’m not really panicky. I just took 6g at 3:20. I definitely need the pain relief though. None of this works without pain relief, or pain treatment like RF ablation or a surgery. I can actual feel the point where I would be losing my mind in a state of shock, but I’m not going there. The Lyrica is preventing it. I can feel it real time. Very surreal. It’s an extremely odd feeling. Has my brain very confused. I feel like I will need to increase the Lyrica dose. Rheumatologist tomorrow. Hopefully she doesn’t treat me like shit like pain mgmt has. Hard pass out at about 6:45. I could feel it coming most of the day. Pain was hitting hard. Then I felt the pass out in my head. I fought it, but not for very long. I honestly don’t feel horrible pain that would warrant passing out. It’s all fibro (I think). Rum at 8:45. Kind of need this day to end. Going to take 50mg Lyrica tomorrow morning. Time to step it up. 3 rums. I probably would have had one more, but I have the appt tomorrow morning. Plus I’m about to fall asleep from the 3 I had. What a day.