Despite feeling good at bed time, sleep last night was the worst I had in a week. So bad. I really needed good sleep to keep this pain relief going from the injection. Fuck me. Why can’t I get one win? Slow day for me. Mostly because I’m so tired. No Lyrica today. First day for that. I imagine adjusting to quitting the Lyrica has been affecting me for the last few days. Pain is OK today though. Decent day so far. About to watch some Paris-Roubaix.
Pain definitely ramped up before the afternoon meds, but it’s been a totally manageable day. Cold and rainy outside, watching cycling with a blanket on. Truly a happy place for me! Still not much of an appetite today. Short walk. Pretty nice. Then Aldi. Still going pretty strong. My issues over the last couple days are mostly lack of conditioning. I can work with that. Going though all my old journal entries over the last day has shown me: 1, I am not OK and I need help. 2, All this nonsense worrying about supplements and such, it’s pointless. Because 3, There is no moving forward for me without a fix for these spine problems. Fibromyalgia is secondary to the spine problems. Treat the pain and you treat the fibro. Treat the pain and you treat the sleep and mental issues too. Everything I do is just putting lipstick on a hog, and it will be until the physical problem is fixed. But how the fuck do I get there? Who is going to help me with that? How do I survive until I get there?
Pain feels like it’s coming back at 8. Feels like the injection is wearing off. It’s right on time based on my experience with the previous injections. It was nice to sniff sanity for a couple days. Can’t wait to see it again some day. No caffeine, no Lyrica btw. Put an ice pack on and did another short walk. Figured I’d get one more in while I could. I’m expecting tomorrow to be bad. Maybe if I can finally get some fucking sleep.