Chronic Pain Makes Me Claustrophobic
Del *Trigger warning: Discussion of claustrophobia and feeling boxed in and trapped. I just had a flash of thought about how long I haven’t been able to work. How long I’ve…
April 2024
Daily Journal Entry for 4/21/24
Well last night ramped up in an absolutely horrifying way. I took that flare up for like 2 hours, then I lost it. Oh my god these flare ups just…
Daily Journal Entry for 4/20/24
I’ve been cutting back on pain meds and muscle relaxants, and that has been leading to a lot less sleep. I woke a couple hours earlier than I would have…
Daily Journal Entry for 4/19/24
Woke up for a while at 5, but thankfully was able to force myself back to sleep. Got on the inversion table first thing, and boy is that really difficult.…
Daily Journal Entry for 4/18/24
This is day 3 in a row now that I haven’t had caffeine, I’ve hit the inversion table first thing in the morning to get a good stretch in, and…
Daily Journal Entry for 4/17/24
The piss and vinegar is gone. The depression and anxiety feel a little better, but not gone. I managed to live in denial of the pain for the day yesterday,…
My Spinal Cord Stimulator Experiences
Spinal cord stimulators (SCS) have become a common method of treating chronic pain. The system consists of a signal generator and lead wires that are implanted into the spinal canal.…
Daily Journal Entry for 4/16/24
Yesterday evening brought a lot of anxiety, and it ended in a proper panic attack. Thankfully those aren’t super common for me, because they are so very difficult to get…
Daily Journal Entry for 4/15/24
Sleep was OK, but I sure don’t feel good this morning. Using an ice pack right now hoping to turn it around like I was able to yesterday, but I’m…
I’m Making my Comeback Again…Again
If you find yourself saying over and over, “I’m going to get in shape again”, or “I’m making my comeback”, or “I’m turning the corner”, you might be in a…