Same sleep issue as the night before. I couldn’t fall asleep until after 2, and I still woke up at 8. I just got out of the other sleep cycle, and now I’m in another bad one. This just isn’t what I need to recover from these fibromyalgia flares. I feel like a zombie again. This is painful in its own way. This has zapped all my motivation, so it’s going to be a down day. I need to get to the store at some point, so I’ll make that my goal for the day. I bet tonight will be better without any gluten. People also say nightshades can flare their fibro also. That’s potatoes, tomatoes, peppers, and eggplants. I don’t think any of those cause me issues, but I might have to test it. Gluten is tested as bad, now I need to test dairy next. Not keen on it right now.
Been pretty paralyzed on the couch. Every single time I think I’ve found something that will help, I end up right back in the same place. That little bit of gluten yesterday ended up totally derailing me. I feel like if I got some sleep I would have ended up being OK today, but I don’t know. Today is pretty bad. These flare ups just destroy me. I have to have hope that staying gluten free will provide me with more flare up free days.
Made it to the store, and holy fucking shit do I regret forgetting to take an ice pack. I nearly collapsed in the store from the pain. Grateful to be home. I got a lot of gluten/dairy free stuff. I have a lot to learn. It took even longer because I had to read the ingredients label on every fucking item I wanted. I need sleep badly. I haven’t eaten anything today yet and it’s 2:00. Yeah, this is a strong fibro flare. I love these days when I try to convince myself I’m actually OK, or it’s only a mild flare, but I’ve actually totally fucking lost it. I don’t know if it’s hope or denial that drives it. I think the latter. I think the major lack of sleep played a big part in this one. The trip to the store was probably the final blow.
I had a recovery after dinner, which was also the first and only meal I ate today. I guess the gluten last night caused some fibro and a lot of pain, the lack of sleep flared both up, and that snowballed. I feel totally beat right now. I need sleep.