Sleep was off the rails more than any other day. This usually follows a decent day, which then sets off the fibromyalgia and puts me right back where I started. Why am I even bothering to fight? Every time I do, I get shit on like this and end up back in a fibro flare. There is no way out. It’s impossible to stop this. This is pure insanity. I might have had a chance today if it wasn’t for the sleep issues. I am so sick of this shit. I can’t ever make any progress. I can’t ever get a good day. There is ALWAYS something blocking my path. Despite doing everything right, I still get fucked. I’m pretty confident it’s not a food issue at this point. It’s simply an uncontrollable-pain issue.
I had some food prepped from yesterday, so I forced myself to cook that. I usually feel better when I eat. I just have to push through the lack of appetite first, then push through the paralysis to actually cook something. I am so freaking tired. I’m pretty darn sure that I would have had a decent day today if I had gotten some sleep.
Been using a lot of magnesium oil today and it has helped more than any of the diet changes. There is a lot of evidence that magnesium can be helpful for fibromyalgia and a lot of other issues. I don’t want to fall into the same trap of thinking there is a magic bullet that will cure me, but it has saved my day today. It hasn’t been a good day by any means, but it’s been getting me through a very difficult day better than anything else has.