Sleep was a little better. Fibromyalgia is still bad. I’m hoping this day can turn around and the fibro fades at some point, but the day is still very young and the spine pain is severe. My head is very foggy right now. I feel so burned out from the massive pain I’ve been dealing with for the last couple days. Last night I was noticing how quickly my mind breaks when dealing with such intense levels of pain. I felt the cracks reopening. It takes a decent amount of time to seal up those cracks, and I haven’t had enough of that time yet. I don’t know how or why I get back on the good diet. I obviously can’t maintain it, and fibro flare still happen, so I’m thinking it’s pointless. It left me high and dry yesterday with nothing to eat because I couldn’t get to the store. Ideally I would eat a very healthy diet regardless, but I just can’t maintain it right now.
Whew. Finally passed out from pain at 10:30. I don’t know how it took so long for that to happen. I’m still slowly regaining consciousness. This often can lead to the end of a major flare up and I am desperately hoping that’s the case this time.
Well, if yesterday was an 11, today is a 10. Slightly better, but oh my god it’s so incredibly horrifying. I’m terrified of moving because it hurts so much. I haven’t eaten anything today, though I’ve managed to stay mostly hydrated. I don’t really feel any better for having passed out. Usually it acts as a reset for my brain and leads to feeling a bit better, although it definitely rings my bell and leaves me feeling off for the rest of the day.
I was sitting in my recliner and slid out onto the floor, then I flopped completely onto the floor. I felt like I was going to pass out again. It was close, and I was pretty zoned out for about 10 minutes, but it didn’t happen. Just a wonderful few days lately. When does it end?