I couldn’t stay awake last night. I fell asleep early, but of course kept waking up. I spent about 2 hours awake through the night, but I made up for it with volume. That is achieved by taking half a muscle relaxant and ibuprofen at about 6am. The pain builds up through the night. I toss and turn to try to get some comfort. The irony is that all the tossing and turning ends up causing more pain. There’s no way to stop that cycle. Getting pain medication of some sort somewhere in the middle of the night helps, but it’s not good to take ibuprofen on an empty stomach.
Definitely a better day today. First good day I’ve had in a while. I think the Lyrica is finally totally out of my system. That stuff has some terrible withdrawal effects, and even though I only took it for 3 days, it still messed with me quite a bit. I think it messed with one of the other medications I take, so I took a lot less of that medication today and I feel much less of those interaction type side effects. Lyrica is out of the body within a day or so, so I really don’t understand how it could be messing with me, but it’s a big variable that was introduced, then removed.
I made a quick dash to the store today for some fresh food. I cooked a pretty good dinner for myself and I’m totally stuffed. I actually had lunch today also. I forced it a bit, but I normally don’t have enough of an appetite to eat breakfast or lunch anymore. Pretty messed up when eating lunch makes you feel nostalgic! Just one of many ridiculous things pain patients have to deal with.
I’m taking it easy today. Decent days like this are very few and very far between. I don’t want to push it too hard and cause more pain. I haven’t turned my PC on in about 5 days now. I would love to be playing some games, but I really don’t want to risk hurting myself from sitting upright for any length of time. I’ve been staying on top of the ice packs and ibuprofen. I think I will try to get in a walk around the church parking lot across the street. Especially after that big dinner. Although it’s like 187F degrees outside and I might melt.
I did the church walk, and holy crap is it nasty out there. Super hot and humid. Not nice for this San Francisco boy. The walk hurt. It was all of a 2 block walk and it hurt a lot. I can’t do anything physical, including sitting at my desk and playing games! I’ve been burned way too many times by being over-physical when I get decent days. And over-physical really only means walking a few blocks. It’s not like I’m out running or something. These days, if I happen to get a decent day, I try to enjoy the first one if I can by just chilling out and enjoying not having a pain level of 10. If I get multiple decent days, I’ll get bored and antsy and I usually end up doing something like walking or playing games, and I usually put myself into pain again. But it happens anyway regardless of what I do. There is no keeping this pain away for long.