The lack of sleep continues. It’s making things super difficult. It seems like it’s beyond one of my normal-ish, messed up sleep cycles that happens from time to time. This headache has held over from yesterday. I’m struggling to control it. Another day where I fight just to survive. Zero progress, zero enjoyment of the day. No games, no walking, nothing. Just desperately hoping I can survive without having a full psychotic break. I need to get on track somehow before Thursday, because there is a massive amount of pain heading my way from this procedure.
Went for a walk. I forced that one hard. I was thinking maybe I was just tired and I didn’t actually feel super shitty today. I was for sure super tired when I got home. I jumped in bed and ended up with the longest nap I’ve had in probably a couple years. Whew. I certainly feel different than I did before. I’m not sure how just yet. Still waking up. Headache is still here. Thankfully it hasn’t run away today like I was worried about.
Pain has been better since the nap. I feel really wiped out. I’ve been lacking sleep for at least a week now, and it has definitely caught up. I really need tonight’s sleep to be back on track. I’ve said that before! When you live completely in the margins, every tiny thing like a small amount of extra sleep is super helpful. It’s not easy walking a razor’s edge.