Better sleep last night. Anxiety was lower when I woke up. I feel better today. I’ve been lacking sleep lately, and it has added up and taken its toll. These are normal cycles for me, unfortunately. The slightest issue can upset the whole “balance”, and there isn’t much balance to be had. I’m starting to look forward to getting the second part of the RF ablation out of the way. I wish it was all done at the same time because the recovery is nasty. The recovery is the part I was feeling worried about, but today I have some optimism. It took 6 weeks for me to regain the strength I need to get through it. Ouch.
Went for a short walk. Pretty difficult, but nice to get out, and it’s a nice day outside also. Fresh air does wonders for me. Cool air is even better, but we won’t have that for a while. This stinking hell hole of a city is way too hot and humid for me.
Went for another walk. that one hurt. Partly lack of activity, partly spine pain. I’ve been having this thing lately when I walk where my right hip flexor and my left knee both hurt a lot. Using the cane can help, but I have to switch up because it’s on both sides and the other side hurts. I don’t have anywhere near the energy I had just a year ago when it comes to going for walks. I guess that mainly because I stopped trying. I got too beat down by the negative reinforcement. The more I tried, the worse the pain was.