Today feels very similar to yesterday. I had to force myself to be active today, but it has payed off so far. I feel like these good vibes might be breaking up though. Something just doesn’t feel the same as yesterday. I’m probably running out of mental energy. I don’t have much in reserve, so it doesn’t take much to run out. I went for a walk early, then played a game for a little bit. Still got in a couple things I wanted. I just have that ominous feeling that something bad is around the corner. Hopefully it doesn’t manifest itself.
I got back to playing my main game today, and I finally finished the new campaign. It came out on June 4th, and it’s about 10-12 hours, and I just finished it on August 21st. I am so far behind everyone else. I still have to level up so I can play normal activities. This game has hard carried me through some hard times. There is one activity I used to run for hours at a time – back when all I had to deal with was crippling depression and anxiety. Ah the “good ole days”. It’s a fairly brainless activity, and when you’re properly leveled up it’s pretty easy. People take to speed running it, and I’m all for it. I used to watch somebody on Twitch streaming whatever game while I hammered away at that activity playlist. I couldn’t run it until now because my level was so low. Now I’m at the minimum level so I can play it, but it’s actually difficult. The grind to get fully level up is a tough one that would take me a lot more time, but I can’t manage sitting upright anymore than I already have. I’ll have to come back to it probably in a week or so after this procedure. The procedure is going to lay me out for 2 weeks if it goes anything like the last one.