I don’t think I’ve had decent sleep in about 3 weeks now. Sleep seems to be worse each night, and I wake up earlier every morning. I don’t know how I’m still going. It makes sense that I crashed yesterday. I don’t have a chance without any kind of decent sleep. I feel like a zombie. My brain isn’t working right. If I can’t think properly, then there’s no way I can fight my pain and fibromyalgia issues. I can’t even spell properly as I’m typing. I have to correct every third word.
Also, I hit the tipping point with the ice packs. I used to do walks with ice packs so it was easier and I could do more distance, but I found I was causing damage and increasing pain, but couldn’t feel it because of the ice packs. It allowed me to push past my limits, and that caused problems later. That’s where the big flare up yesterday came from. Constant ice packs allowed me to sit upright(ish) for more time than usual. I still wasn’t able to play games or walk, but just sitting in my recliner rather than laying down can increase the pain. Ice packs allow me to spend more time vertical, and that increases the pain, especially when I take the ice pack off. It’s not like I’m actually active or anything. Sitting and reclining in a recliner isn’t exactly even being upright. And I can’t even do that.
I don’t know what caused it ultimately, but this flare up has only gotten worse today. I couldn’t even fall asleep for a nap. I couldn’t stay in one position for more than a minute, and I couldn’t find anything comfortable. This fibromyalgia flare up is really crushing me now. I’m tired and exhausted on top of it. I expected this to hit a week ago. I wish I knew what caused the delay. Maybe the cortisone the doctor injected after the procedure? That makes sense actually. And one thing I also know is ice packs have no effect on fibromyalgia, so fuck me on that one. All I’ve had to eat all day is a cupcake. I feel nauseous from the pain. I feel like I have an appetite, but I also feel like I would vomit if I tried to eat.