As expected, sleep was worse than it has been. There is no way to come back from this much sleep deprivation. These days always destroy me. It’s a sort of pain that’s difficult to describe, but very intense. I will get a nap one way or another at some point. I am so fucking tired.
I can’t even tell anymore if there is any improvement in my spine pain. I woke up with so much pain this morning. The lack of sleep increases the pain and reduces my tolerance. I could be more active if I had sleep. I could be playing games even. Imagine getting sleep and being able to sit upright for more than 10 minutes! That’s just a dream come true for me, but in order to get dreams, one has to SLEEP first, which I seem to be unable to do anymore.
I forced myself to sleep and got an hour of some of the worst sleep ever. I can’t even medicate myself to sleep properly right now. I feel worse right when I’m waking up. Hopefully that evens out.
I tried to go for a walk and that was really difficult. Slow and sloppy. I couldn’t walk in a straight line. Hopefully that’s my brain finally giving in and ready to recover and sleep.