I had one of those nights where I felt like when I woke up in the middle of the night, it surely must have been like 4 or 5:00, but when I looked at the clock, it was only 12:30. Oh, those are hard nights to get through. I woke up a lot of times, and it was always only like 15 minutes later each time. I’m very tired today. I’ve been getting better sleep lately. I think the 6 week period of extreme sleep deprivation seems to be over. Back to normal, crappy sleep instead of non-existent sleep. It’s a step up!
Feeling really tired today. Worn out. I feel like I’ve been pushing hard trying to recover. Active recovery. I need a nap. I need some healing and recovery. I think this is a good thing. I just need to achieve it.
Had a very short map in the early afternoon. I spent about 55 minutes trying to sleep, and 5 minutes actually sleeping. This is normal. The pain prevents me from sleeping. If I use a muscle relaxant in the middle of the day, I can sleep, but I don’t like doing that. I want less medication. I want this ablation to heal up and to provide the pain relief I need.
I had some medication issues today. It was cooler outside today by a little bit, but I couldn’t get out because of the medication issues. Not a big deal. It happens fairly regularly. I’m dying to get off all my meds. I can dream. I feel better at night. Hopefully it rides with me through to tomorrow.