I think I overdid it yesterday in every way. I had a couple walks in the heat. I had dinner with my family, which is so difficult on many levels. I did another walk after dinner to burn off my rage. I was completely exhausted physically and mentally after dinner. Then I started obsessing about going back home to California, so that tipped me a worse way mentally. I tried to control it. I got myself to sleep at a decent hour, but I woke up in the middle of the night for about an hour and a half. I got back to sleep and woke up late, so that’s good, but I’m just wiped out this morning. I’m leaning on some caffeine today to help pick me up. I need to get up and get moving and get back outside. I’m afraid this could all cause a fibromyalgia flare up. They are pretty unpredictable, but when I end up exhausting myself like this, they tend to happen quite a bit.
Yeah, I’m pretty sure this is a flare up now. I’m having a lot of trouble moving, I’m in a super pissy mood, ice packs aren’t helping. I’m not foggy in the head, but that comes a bit later into the start of a flare up. It’s been a whole 2 days since the last one, so of course it’s another flare up. Walking out in that heat from yesterday didn’t help anything. I need cool weather, so what do I get? 85F in October. The sun feels just as hot today, but there’s a better breeze. Very humid though. I took some magnesium and I’ll keep the ice packs going. That’s all I can do.
I’ve moved into a moderate flare up in the evening. Head is finally foggy. I had some decent momentum coming into today, so I’m coasting into it a bit, but it really doesn’t take long to take me down. I was horizontal on the couch for a while when I suddenly realized I was laying on the couch. I didn’t remember how I got there. I just realized I was there. This disease is so crazy.
I was getting pretty stir crazy so I went outside at about 7. Much cooler now, though still humid. It was enough to snap me out of my mild panic loop though. One of my management tools is to go outside and get some fresh air, and if it’s cold, then the cold air tends to slap me in the face and snap me out of a bad thought loop or whatever panic I’m feeling.