Pretty horrifying waking up today. Spine pain is terrible. I feel like I just ran a marathon. It was so difficult making it through the night. Sleep is supposed to be refreshing, but I feel exhausted. The Lyrica has only hurt me so far. I thought I had the turn around point yesterday afternoon, but it quickly faded away. So far, taking Lyrica has been a monster mistake. The fibro is still quite strong. Usually when I stop the guaifenesin, the fibro fades away. Something about the Lyrica is messing things up. In the past it has been beneficial for the first week. Each of the 3 times I’ve started up on it, it has been consistently helpful, but not now.
Every day for a week now I’ve been saying “I don’t know how I’m going to get through the day”. You can only do that 2 or 3 times before it breaks your brain. How on earth do I get a decent day? I’ve had like 2 decent days in the last month. This is one of the worst periods I’ve ever had. I can’t see any way out of it. I’ve been here so many times. I am so exhausted from it.
This is definitely a special kind of day. I don’t know what’s going on. I’m floating through the day. I’m not able to comprehend what’s happening around me. The cognitive deficit is massive today. I would say the pain is better, but the insanity is worse. I guess the psychosis is taking over at this point. I’m surprised it hasn’t already. Maybe it has and I’m only just realizing it.
Starting to feel better at about 5:00. I guess it has been a combination of a horrible fibro flare and Lyrica side effects? I really don’t know. I’ve never felt that before. It’s easing now, thankfully. That’s all I’m going to worry about for now. Focus on anything positive I can get.