Daily Journal Entry for 3/22/24
Del Holy fucking shit sleep was bad. Couldn’t fall asleep, couldn’t stay asleep. I remember about 40 wake ups by 3am. Oh my god. I am drained today. So tired, exhausted.…
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Daily Journal Entry for 3/21/24
Slightly better day than yesterday, but still tons of pain. I was kind of paralyzed on the couch and couldn’t even get up to take meds. I took 6.5 at…
Daily Journal Entry for 3/20/24
I’m just so fucking done. I keep feeling like I’m fighting back, but I’m not. This fucking dissociative loop keeps fucking going. I have no control over it, or myself.…
Daily Journal Entry for 3/19/24
Pain was off the charts late last night. It took all I had to keep from panicking. I instantly lost all my will to fight. I had that realization that…
Daily Journal Entry for 3/18/24
Sleep was terrible. Even after all that effort yesterday and 2 walks. Even with the CPAP. I don’t think the half Zanaflex did anything yesterday evening. 6g at 9:45. I…
Daily Journal Entry for 3/17/24
Pretty good sleep. Fewest wake ups. I can remember in forever. Pain is decent, though bothering me. No shock feeling in my head. I will switch kratom today to the…
Daily Journal Entry for 3/16/24
I feel better today than I did yesterday. The alcohol held off the shock somehow. Pain is pretty bad now, but I guess I’m hanging in. I can’t do anything,…
Daily Journal Entry for 3/15/24
Sleep was only slightly better. Woke up 8:30. 6.5g at 9:40. Pain honestly feels the same, but I just feel better. I’m not in shock today, although there’s still plenty…
Daily Journal Entry for 3/14/24
Sleep was completely off the fucking rails. Constant wake ups for no reason. Started right when I first fell asleep and kept going all fucking night. Half zanny at 6.…
Daily Journal Entry for 3/13/24
Great sleep until 4, then loads of wake ups. Half zanny at 7, wake up at 9. 7g at 9:45. I had the idea today of blogging. I always say…