Horrible sleep. So much spine pain. I love how the fibromyalgia makes my spine hurt, and spine pain makes the fibro flare up. I’ve invented a perpetual motion machine! If we can harness my suffering and the horror of my pain, we can use it to generate power on a massive scale and raise the quality of life for…everybody else. As soon as I hit the bed last night I felt massive spine pain. That made me sleep like ass. When I woke up, the spine pain was still there, and the fibromyalgia was screaming. It’s really bad this morning. Really bad. This pain has me holding my breath. I hate starting days like this. It’s so demoralizing starting in such a bad place and knowing it won’t get any better.
I guess I found one of Lyrica’s downfalls. When it fails to control the fibromyalgia, then you have to deal with the side effects of the medication, and the bad fibro flare at the same time. Now it’s a double shit storm. I think the Lyrica side effects would fade after a week or so if I stuck with it. But today is pretty brutal dealing with both things at the same time.
I desperately needed to cut my hair, so I did that. The shower after was super difficult. I need a shower stool on days like this. Bathing can be super difficult. Same with changing sheets and doing laundry. Any kind of cleaning really. Sitting on an ice pack totally zoned out while I try to deal with Lyrica side effects and a fibromyalgia flare. I haven’t eaten anything all day, and someone in the building is cooking something good. It’s making me hungry. I put some rice in the rice cooker, so maybe I’ll manage to get some of that down. I need to make a trip to the grocery store pretty badly. Maybe tomorrow if I’m lucky.
I’m just realizing today is Saturday. I haven’t left my apartment since Wednesday. Not even to get mail. I guess that’s only 3 days. That’s not that bad. No wonder I need to get to the grocery store!
Oh my god, it’s only 6:00 and I feel like I need to pass out. The spine pain is overwhelming. The Lyrica is carrying a tiny bit of the load of the fibromyalgia, but nothing is helping the spine pain. I’m not sure how I make it through the rest of the day.