Sleep was a bit better last night. I still woke up early, but felt better after waking up. I don’t know what the hell happened yesterday. The day before was the best day since the surgery, then yesterday was an absolute disaster. I started feeling better by the end of the night. I have no idea what caused the flare up, or what ended the flare up. Nothing makes sense with this disease. For my only meal of the day yesterday, I had some frozen pizza, then ended up feeling better afterwards as the evening went on. The idea that certain foods in my diet are causing flare ups can suck my dick, because pizza has items that are on all the lists of things I was avoiding, and it didn’t cause any issues. Not yesterday and not even today. I was avoiding gluten, dairy, and nightshade vegetables. I’m feeling more confident that diet has nothing to do with it, so I’ll continue opening up my diet.
Those diet changes were copium. The fact that the fibromyalgia has no cause and no way to prevent it drives me insane. Changing the diet was a way I could proactively treat the disease and try to avoid flare ups. Of course it’s all bullshit and didn’t work, so that leaves me back with the insanity of this disease. No more copium. Just like always, I’ll have to deal with it as it comes. For no reason. And wait for it to go away. For no reason. There are 2 causes of flare ups I am certain of: High levels of spine pain, and lack of sleep. All I can do is keep treating those causes. Unfortunately I don’t feel any relief from the last procedure that was supposed to treat the spine pain. Tomorrow will be 2 weeks since the procedure. I’m starting to feel like I’ve just recovered from the surgical pain only. I’ll probably need to get the other half of the procedure done before I can make a proper judgment.
Got out to the store and got a lot of frozen stuff. I don’t enjoy that garbage, but it’s just so helpful to have something I don’t have to prepare. They had that daily shower cleaner on sale too, so I won’t have to worry about cleaning my shower. I’ve used it in the past and it works. It’s all about making things as easy as possible. If you don’t have to worry about these little things, that give you a tiny bit more energy to focus on surviving. Back home on an ice pack and recovering.
It’s been a weird day. The spine pain has been high, but the fibromyalgia has been low. I don’t know what the hell happened yesterday. Why did it flare up so badly, and how did it ease up so fast? That’s not normal. Nothing makes sense. Sometimes I do something and it causes problems, other times it eases the problems. Doing the same thing and expecting different results is the definition of insanity. What is it called when you actually get different results? That’s just called “my life” I guess.