Wow. Just pure horror waking up today. And all morning so far. This is one of the worst flares I’ve ever had based on intensity. It’s not the worst based on length. Yet.
Flare up has been easing up as the day goes on. It’s the medication causing it right now. It keeps making everything worse. It’s supposed to do that at first, but it’s supposed to get easier. It’s all just so unbearable for me. I’m starting and stopping it, hoping that’s enough to get through that beginning phase. You’re not supposed to stop taking it, but I have no choice. I can’t get through otherwise. As long as there is a purpose to this suffering, I’ll keep at it, but I can’t see any end to it. I have no confidence. I’m trusting a miracle cure because that’s about all I can do. It’s working partly as intended, so some of the results are there.