Started really slow today. I thought it was going to be another terrible day when I woke up. I missed Thanksgiving yesterday. Awful day. Today picked up a little bit as the day went on. I’ve been maintaining since. Not a good day, but not terrible. I’m exhausted and spent from all these horrifying days.
I forced myself to go for a walk. My legs were hurting. Symptom of fibromyalgia. It’s pretty cold out and it was difficult at first, but then I started zooming. My legs didn’t hurt anymore. After a while I noticed my legs were a bit numb from the cold. It’s like when I go for a walk with an ice pack down the back of my pants. I can do more than I otherwise could because I can’t feel the pain I’m causing. Same with the cold weather and my legs. Plus I like cold weather. Happy to have it. If it was summer, I would have been crawling home because the heat would have aggravated everything and zapped all my energy. It’s all very painful now that I’m home though. Once my legs and back warm up, the pain hits hard.
I’m really rattled from the extreme pain from the last several days. Today has been better, but the ‘echoes’ of the pain still rattle around in my body and head. It doesn’t just let you go. The brain has to recover. Today isn’t a recovery day, it’s a transition day. But who knows what will happen tomorrow. It might be worse. Whenever I desperately need good sleep or a good day, I never get it.