Slept better. Woke up early though. Like 7. Stayed in bed for about an hour. 6g at 9, +.5g at 9:45. Yep, going to take 7g as soon as I’m ready to pass out. Only 2:30 and I am dying bad. Ice pack for the last hour and I still feel absolutely horrified. I’m never going to get off kratom like this. The pain is just terrifying. My anxiety and depression are OK actually. 7g of the red at 3. +1 g 40 minutes later. I didn’t feel a thing from the 7. 5:00 now and I feel a normal kratom response. With ice pack. Pain is still bad. This is such a ridiculous situation. This will be impossible to quit. I’m not going to suffer through 5 days of withdrawal hell again only to go right back on it. Alcohol is really my only other tool, and that got dangerous.