Yeah, woke up feeling crappy. I wanted to go right at 8, but I waited it out until 10. Procedure was bullshit. It was higher up than where my normal pain. The injections caused more pain. Sent me to a 10. Brutal. Took 7.5 at 3:15. Pain is very bad. It is going to be an awful evening. I might have been better off getting wasted. Better pain relief and a night off kratom. They want a 2 month follow up! What the actual fuck? I was speechless when when they said that. I told them that was crazy and 2 weeks is the standard. I will message them in 2 weeks and told them it didn’t work and go from there. I really need to find a new doctor. A place that does a lot more procedures than this guy. This doctor sucks so bad. Total ass hole. How the fuck can I last 2 months just for a follow up to tell them this didn’t work? They clearly don’t take patient’s pain seriously. Maybe there’s a chance to feel better tomorrow. There is a lot of pressure in the spine right now that is increasing pain. And there is local anesthetic in here, so when that wears off, holy fuck it’s going to be bad. I felt nothing like last night for the whole day today. That feeling tanked hard and is gone. Amazing how fast it can change. I did a short walk and then an anxious church walk at night. It’s going to be 178 degrees tomorrow, so I won’t be going outside. I have to pick up a prescription, so maybe that will get me out the door in the morning? I need another drinking day, but If I’m anything like right now, it will get really ugly, really fast. It always does. Anxiety is strong. I have no clue what can be done to help me. I’m thinking intrathecal pump is about it. I learned about those 20 years ago. Not a good solution. Truly a last resort. I’m very close to that. Looking at inversion tables. If L2-4 isn’t the actual problem, then I don’t think it would help at all. The pain is at the fused levels, so inversion won’t do dick. I played a lot of games. Until 10:30. Ice pack on the whole time. I think I’m going to pay for this tomorrow. I’m guessing horror from the wake up. And a blazing hot day tomorrow. I think it’s going to be a tough one.

By Del