Passed the fuck out when I went to bed and slept until 2am. I was dead. Very nice. 3 beers and a Zanaflex and whatever kratom was still around. Ended up waking up at like 6. Took half a Zanaflex, but I was wide awake. That really only made me angry a bit later. 5.5 +.5g at 7:00. It’s 12:15 right now and I haven’t re-dosed. I guess I’ll wait until 3 or something. Had a short walk this morning. Played a TAB map and lost track of time a bit. Very nice. Had the brace on most of the day. Should I drink instead of kratom in the pm? I would have to wait a long while to do that. Not sure if I can. Drinking really doesn’t help the pain much. It wasn’t until the third beer that I had relief. 3 beers in like 30 minutes. The maintenance on that is rough too. It took like an hour or more before I really started feeling any better. I’m surprised I still feel OK. I think I did 2 walks today. Went and got some cheap beer. I really hate cheap beer. I feel like I did better with the Sierra Nevada. 2:30 and I still feel OK. Yesterday it dropped off hard at like 5:15. It was a tough night. I guess I’ll run it until 4 to see where I am. If it escalates to crisis mode, then I have the drugs. Otherwise I wait it out and have some beers if needed. 3:00 and it’s a toss up. I feel like skipping it, but I know it will be a bad night again like last night. Beers will probably start at like 5, which is not good. 4:00. I’m going to let it go, but this is not good. Pain is bad and it’s in my head. Even with ice pack. I’m going to try a walk in a bit. Did another short walk. 6:15 and feeling some withdrawals. Pain is OK I guess. Bad, but not horrifying. Going to start some beers in a bit. The depression is just starting. Very mild, but it’s there. Another cruel joke from the withdrawals.