Slept OK. Woke up and looked at the clock. 8:30. 1 second later the horror flooded in. I managed to make it to 9:45 I think. 7g. Went to Aldi and bought some kombucha. I feel better after drinking that. That’s great, and I needed it, but usually that means I just potentiated the kratom and there is metabolic competition going or something and I’ll pay for that later. The good effects made me want to skip kratom this afternoon. I kind of want to go for a walk now. The inversion table is supposed to come right about now. Need to wait for that. Still thinking about a PlayStation. Not sure if I would have been playing it even if I had it. I needed that little buff from the kombucha. I hope I don’t have to pay for it later. Called Molina, but got sent to phone purgatory. Found I can message them on the web portal. That’s submitted. Hopefully the second injection is actually approved and Loyola is full of shit. They probably will still make me wait a few more months anyway because they’re ass holes and they don’t care about patients. This reminds me of the first time I took the whole ashwagandha. Kind of like the first corydalis too. It’s kind of exactly what I needed, but those previous times, it had a price. I feel at ease. Not high, but comfy. Kind of just normal. Why do I always have to go back? Short walk. Perfect weather today. Inversion table came today. Assembly was hard on the body. Had ice pack in the whole time. If I didn’t have this boost from the kombucha, I don’t know how I would have done it. 3:30 now and I feel like the kombucha boost has dropped off, and I’m kind of beat, but I don’t really feel a need for more kratom. I don’t feel like withdrawals or anything. I feel like I need meds for the pain I just caused. I’ll wait it out until 4 and see. When I did this with the ash a while back, it dropped off hard and left me struggling the rest of the night. It’s like it burned out all the kratom in my system. Seemed like it accelerated the detox process too, which is why I don’t like to take it on day 1 of WDs. I got some seltzers today at Aldi. Maybe I can drink my way through a tolerance break, or at least a night off. Maybe a morning off tomorrow dealing with a hangover. 4:30 and I sailed through without the kratom. This pretty much never makes sense to me. Gotta take advantage. I did notice this morning I had less side effects. It wasn’t great pain relief, but it wasn’t awful like it has been lately. It just comes and goes in cycles. I read that kombucha has this effect. It’s normal and expected. I didn’t expect it to relieve pain and make me feel decent during a time when pain meds have been fucking me. I went out and bought 2 more bottles when I went to pick up Rx. We’ll give those a try tomorrow. I feel that it has dropped off. Pain is pretty bad. I did a short walk earlier and I was hobbling home slowly. Regardless of whether it helps tomorrow or now, I’m never going to be done with kratom until my spine is fixed. Maybe I can get a tolerance break out of it though. I feel the need to drink tonight. No clue what tomorrow morning will be like. I imagine a bit horrifying. I’ll try the kombucha first, then kratom if needed. Pain is bad now, but I don’t feel any WDs like when I do a CT day. Even a normal missed dose has more WDs I think. First seltzer making me super tired. Kind of felt that way already. Doesn’t feel good to add the alcohol. Difficult to make it without it.